A new complication for COSMOSIS

Star Trek. the new film, I had overlooked that this film was going to be resleased around the same time as COSMOSIS ANd i hadnt considered the implifications that this might have on the success of COSMOSIS becasue the hole premisal of COSMOSIS in the first place was to take the basic premisal of Star Trek to the next level so Im hoping that the new Star Trek wont of desaturated my audience.

do not fear I think it will be ok. I saw the new star trek film last night and i have to say that I was impressed but in an ignorant way. I felt like my eyes were taken on a voyage but my mind was left behind. it wasnt as shit as starwars but it was heading in the direction of mindless special effects instead of deep philosophical issues and psyche voyages. its as shame becasue this is the first star trek film that i was old enougfh to of directed myself and its bad that they overlooked me in favour of mindless mainstream filmmakers. oh well theres always next time and especailly after the sucess of COSMOSIS i wont get overlookd agen. 

anyway the point is that there will be lots of star trek fans who will feel a bit cheated like I did and they will be my audeinece of COSMOSIS. COSMOSIS will give them the deep philosophical mind enhancing radical experience that they wont get from star trek.

also they havnt got a fucking clue how time travel really works and they shat all over gene roddenberrys vision but i still quite liked it a bit and they did a good job with the shit material.

by the way tell everyone you now about COSMOSIS if you havnt already

the wait is nearly over

Live long and film make

Groundbreakeing

Welcome

things are alot better now COSMOSIS is looking fucking incredible i cant wait to see the look on hu and sues faces when they see it. I havent seen my so called "crew members" for weeks which is a good thing because i have been able to focus all of my mind energy into manifestating COSMOSIS into the vision that I originaly invisioned. COSMOSIS has actually taken itself beyond what I orginally invisioned sometimes my mind creations go off on a voyage of there own beyond the bounds of my consciuous mind and all i can do is let the energy flow and see where I am taken. The final section of COSMOSIS is turning out to be the most radical thought provoking mind enhancing peice of visual art that ive ever created and remember i made PSYCHE PROBE. cinema has never been taken to these places before and I can tell you one thing theres no fucking way my group are going to be taking any fucking credit for it they can fuck off. This is really an exciting time for me and an ecxiting time for you asswell just be patient its nearly done and it will be worth the wait beleive me.

oh by the way i've spoken to the documentary people and Ive agreed that they can make the documenatry but as long as i am overseeing it so that they dont try to make me look bad because of jealousy. also there going to film an interview of me to put in the documentary so that i can get across my side of the story and tell everyone what really happened.

Live long and prosper 

My darkest hour

Last week was a bad week for COSMOSIS. at times i came close to questioning my faith in filmmaking and definitly my faith in this university and its students and so called "staff". i already knew that I am the only student who truly beleives in pushing the boundrys of cinema but I had no idea that there are people who actually want to DESTROY my visions and art. Jealousy no doubt. jealousy and apeathy and stupidness, basically what society is today. first off my so called "crew" try to shit all over my vision when we were supposed to be filming the final parts of COSMOSIS they were rude disrespectfull and stupid, nothing I cant handle, but then they have the absolute nerve to walk out on ME. thats right THEY walked out on ME. cheeky bastards they were lucky I didnt fire THEM!!!!!! The documentary crew were there that day but they definitly wont be making there documentary now because they didnt capture me the way i shoud of been, the documentary was supposed to inspire you all but instead it will depress you at the depths that people will sink to to destroy art. plus the documentary people would probably edit it so that it looks like I was to blame because theyve got it in for me asswell so you can forget about the documentary.

Anyway to add insult to injury the next day I had to show COSMOSIS as a work in progress to Su and HUw for a summative assessment and they laughed all the way through it. thats right LAUGHED. obviously i didnt expect them to understand all the deep philosophic issues and i knew that they wouldnt be able to accept my radical techniqes but i really was absoulutely disgusted by how rude and stupid and closed minded they were, they were so bad that they even had me questioning my own talents as a film maker. thats right ME questioning my own TALENTS as a FILMMAKWER. 

obviously as soon as i left the room i remembered that there just part of the system and it is there job to make sure that radical talent and visions like mine are crushed before their preciouse system crumbles under there feet. obviously this just made me more determind to make COSMOSIS the best film ive ever made so that i can laugh in THEIR faces. 

I realise now that i cant rely on anyone but myself. although last week was my darkest week it is also my best week because now that i will have to finish COSMOSIS without my so called "crew" it will be much better becasue they wont be around to fuch it up and i will be free to innotvate cinematic language in order to fully manifestate my vision. i dont need a crew. I dont need actors, I dont need tutors, i dont need a university. I just need me and the infinite possibilitys of my mind

thank you

a great moment for student filmaking

Welcome
just to let you know that ive been asked by some second years if they can make a documentary about me. at first i was a bit sceptical about it becasue Im so busy but then i thought that I owe this to the student filmaker population who should take great inspiration from seeing my creative prosess for themselves on the screen. the documentary will be a fly on the wall style thing that will show me in action in both preproduction and proproduction stages of my current film COSMOSIS. OBVIously Ive already started filming COSMOSIS But i've still got some planning and shooting left to do and they will capture these rare moments on camera. If your mind is closed then you might be disturbed by my unorthadox and radical creative methods but Im hoping that the documentary will inspire you and open your mind to the posibillitys of film making.
untill next time
I depart